Letter to a friend of a chasers girlfriend

I care because ??? I don't know the man I asked that question to everyone of my friends men and women .....I don't choose their answers .... I hold no ones hand in the choices they make. that was the only time I have ever spoken to him. Prob will again.. But like I said I don't know him. Added him and urself merely for social networking that is all. look at it this way do guys do stupid shit sometimes ? it's like asking for water in the desert ud die of thirsts before they admit it... Honestly everyone on earth does that being said does she really want to be with a fool or someone who treats her the way she yearns and deserves to be treated. Plenty of fish in the sea girls. don't worry about bait use a mirror love the person u look at each morning others are just second best

The dre chronicles

https://www.youtube.com/user/dre0101v1?feature=mhee. Check out dre chronicles #1 and let him know what you think !

Second choice

Hidden in the dark corner I feel the cold air creep across my skin as once again I'm an after though.
If the room were to burst into flames and there were others in the room I would be the one left inside.....
Even now I can feel the burns and smell the melted flesh .
Would you save me ?
Would I be your first thought?
No I suppose not .

feeling ugly unwanted , those who say they love me walk away , it's okay I'm so use to it by now doesn't hurt as much anymore.
Stings , burns , aches , and I can feel the numbness take over.

Trust in humanity close to being gone.
Would I be missed if I vanished ?
Would anyone notice if I disappeared ?
Tears well in my eyes streaking across my face as I face the truth ....
I'm a stepping stone , a second thought , my important in someone's life is only measured by the importance of how well I distract them till the one they really want is available or makes their presence know.

I'm getting close to accepting the truth I will never truly be wanted or loved the way others love so passionately. After all you can't really give your heart to someone like me if you want it to belong to someone else...

Throat closing from fighting back the tears. I know I will always be last or second choice I just need to either accept that or let go of it all ..........

People vs Obama

http://youtu.be/jxtGz5gZaq
Time to fix media blackout on this case pass it along post it talk about it let them know who's in charge !!! I have a voice and I will damn well fucking use it !!

A bridge from the dark place to the meadow :D

Well here goes nothing since September 2010 I've been dealing with sooo much in my life downs and ups , vertical and horizontal . A few things I've learned first never trust a man who says he's ur best friend and would never turn his back on you he's lying. Never trust a person on twitter who won't give u a straight answer and is secretly gathering information to twist and use against you (music__girl) .


I can forgive the man to some degree but never the girl who lied to many people on twitter to get what she wanted (him) sadly thanks to my ex roommate for posing as other people (ruben langdon,and a psychic ) to destroy my friendships. Btw music__girl thanks to him I now have a photo of u in panties showing off ur crotch !!! Try getting a respectful modeling job after that stupid move so yeah , my ex friend wasn't the only piece of ass she was after ,from what I've heard she still gets around. However I don't see him getting acting or modeling jobs with what an ugly self absorbed person he has become what can I say u act like who ur with and boy do they act like each other . I bet he's lost a few close friends including the american girl he was in love with for the longest time (Ashley)

Yes I'm still bitter , yes I'm still pissed do I plan on revenge ? Not right now but I make no promises if I ever come across her in person that I won't do something totally stupid.
Now after all that crap I got engaged to a wonderful man ...... was happy worked very hard to save up move to England and start my life with him ... He however was not happy ..... So he wanted to "put things on hold till I get there" my thought if you can't be with me now why would you want me then ? ......... I went through a few different things jobs ,kids stuff , even came close to having another baby ... while on the side I was beginning to open up again about July 2012 jan of that year I met a friend online that reminded me of the friend I lost ...... Terrified at first I took things even slower ....... Sept he told me he loved me as a friend ...... By dec it grew to something much stronger ...... By jan 9th 2013 we were talking relationship
he keeps me sane makes me laugh makes me feel happy that I am who I am ..... Around thanksgiving of 2012 something incredible happened .........
The caged immortal became a published book . It's now on its way to the London book fair available on amazon.com . I feel so blessed to have come so far and I thank each and everyone of my friends who stuck by me and believed me and in me. Next book I publish I will thank you all and make sure your a part of it in ways you will only know ;) As for Doc .... II will see you this year ..... You may not receive Your package on v day but def. by your bday ! :) as for froggy your getting one also , boobs you too and twinkles u as well and u too tink !