Trusting.

How do you give and keep absolute trust in someone when they continue to prove you a fool for doing so. It's like they intentionally break what faith in them you have left just to see you suffer more and more its like they are waiting for you to slip off the edge they keep shoving towards. Either you fall as they shove you or you fight back.... well my friends I have no more fight left.
People always say go with your instinct if you feel your being lied to or deceived in any way. Even if your wrong which lets face it how many women who've been cheated on have not known before it was revealed honestly guys we know even if we dont check up on you or hack your stuff or track you down we jilted trusting wives know. The ones we give our souls to when we say I do is just that you carry a part of us and that part of us knows deep in our bones when you've mislead us. Its not a mothers instinct its a heart instinct its human nature to want to protect ourselves .

So back to the question for the answer what do you do when you've got two places to go the answer is idk no one does all I know now is im on the edge looking over the cliff I can either be shoved off like I've been getting it jump I have no more fight. Its simply not me anymore before I would have ripped off heads for shoving me near the edge .

Fact remains you cant let go or move on if one of you is still in the affair if your friends with the one you cheated with or your still in love with them then making the other let it go isn't going to work if you never have . So my advice before you expect others to let go you must let go first tug of war is no fun over a fire pit cuz someone is gonna get burned and you will no matter what just depends if you want to deal with singed hairs or 3rd degree burns. Either way the choice you make will effect everyone the rest of your life you can cause more pain by hanging on and dragging it out and holding on for dear life to hopes dreams and fears that in the end  your killing what ever good there is left of you.

From the unobjective view ..... you gave your heart first to your wife or gf you decided they were not worthy and took it away gave it to someone else then started to regret it was cuz you didn't want to take it away or because you didn't tell them you gave away a gift you gave them ? Its a simple question and easy to answer just hard to admit .

I know one person reading this is shaking his head and getting miffed im talking about it . For that im sorry .
This isn't just about you there are others in similar situations . This is the only way I know how to help .

So folks what choices do you have on the table?
Stay with the gf/bf or wife/ husband ........
Cons
You will be the subject of hesitant trust
You will have to prove loyalty again
You will have to prove you want to be with them and saying it doesn't cut it you'll have make them feel wanted
You will have a lot to make up for.
If you live in Small towns people will talk about you both and you will get to be the subject of rumors or worse.
You will hurt the lover
You'll have fear and doubt about a backlash.

Pros.

You have someone willing to accept the fact your human and make mistakes.
You'll have someone who will still be holding on to you while your hanging over the edge.
You'll have someone willing to pull you back up.
You'll have someone who knows you truly knows you faults and all.
You'll have someone who really deep down loves you in spite of you screw ups.
If they are willing to take you back dont be fooled because that's actual true love not an idiot move if this person can forgive and move on even when they are afraid you've got one hell of a cheering section and a kick ass life guard ;)
You give the lover a chance you find the kind of love you've had all along

Now if you choose your lover.
Pros.

Everything you do is new !
You can Change who you are and they wont ever notice.
You can start a new life from scratch.
You can learn things all over again.
You can enjoy all the ups and downs with someone new.

Cons

If you have a family you may create more enemies then more friends
Some old friends may walk away from you
Your family may resent you for hurting the other one
If a divorce happens you no longer have the right to be a part of the husband/wife s life.
If there are children involved you may get resent ment for breaking up a family and the lover will also be resented.
You no longer have input or influence  on what happens in the life of the other no matter what.
You loose that comfort of always knowing what will happen or not happen.
You loose a part of yourself no matter what
You have to start over going on the rollercoaster of ups and downs with someone new
If people knew you cheated some may look at you in unsavory ways and others may feel you cannot be trusted.
If you lied to have the affair people may not trust you.
If it happened at work your boss may always think you cant be trusted.
(Regardless having a fling or dating a coworker is never good for work single or not. )
If you live in Small towns people will talk about you both and you will get to be the subject of rumors or worse.
You'll hurt your partner.
If a divorce it may not go well divorces over adultery never looks good to any judge. This will not be the spouses doing it will be the judge who judges both sides.

Now the third and final option is to walk away from everyone.

Pros.

You get to improve you alone for a while
You get to enjoy life with no heavy weight of any kind
You get to experience love in a new way
You get to start over with someone else cleanly
If you have a family they will know that you are doing the right thing for you and not doing it to please someone else.

Cons

You hurt everyone including yourself
You get to start over in life .
You no longer have a family structure to lean on
You will still look like the bad one for a while
You get to be alone for a while

Regardless what option you choose 
You above all have to live with you if you can live with yourself happily after making a choice then that's the choice for you.
Yes there will be some sadness as with everything that ends.  I hope all of you that have come to me for answers have them now on a personal note im going through the same thing but like lately I have been taking an objective strong view on things . I cannot rescue everyone with a problem anymore if you are going yo call me selfish for that im okay with that after all you have to love who you are and know that before you know to not going an throwing stones at a boulder you'll just end up dodging your own stone.

Thank you and good luck and questions or comments inbox me on fb
Love Bunny.

Letter to a friend of a chasers girlfriend

I care because ??? I don't know the man I asked that question to everyone of my friends men and women .....I don't choose their answers .... I hold no ones hand in the choices they make. that was the only time I have ever spoken to him. Prob will again.. But like I said I don't know him. Added him and urself merely for social networking that is all. look at it this way do guys do stupid shit sometimes ? it's like asking for water in the desert ud die of thirsts before they admit it... Honestly everyone on earth does that being said does she really want to be with a fool or someone who treats her the way she yearns and deserves to be treated. Plenty of fish in the sea girls. don't worry about bait use a mirror love the person u look at each morning others are just second best

The dre chronicles

https://www.youtube.com/user/dre0101v1?feature=mhee. Check out dre chronicles #1 and let him know what you think !

Second choice

Hidden in the dark corner I feel the cold air creep across my skin as once again I'm an after though.
If the room were to burst into flames and there were others in the room I would be the one left inside.....
Even now I can feel the burns and smell the melted flesh .
Would you save me ?
Would I be your first thought?
No I suppose not .

feeling ugly unwanted , those who say they love me walk away , it's okay I'm so use to it by now doesn't hurt as much anymore.
Stings , burns , aches , and I can feel the numbness take over.

Trust in humanity close to being gone.
Would I be missed if I vanished ?
Would anyone notice if I disappeared ?
Tears well in my eyes streaking across my face as I face the truth ....
I'm a stepping stone , a second thought , my important in someone's life is only measured by the importance of how well I distract them till the one they really want is available or makes their presence know.

I'm getting close to accepting the truth I will never truly be wanted or loved the way others love so passionately. After all you can't really give your heart to someone like me if you want it to belong to someone else...

Throat closing from fighting back the tears. I know I will always be last or second choice I just need to either accept that or let go of it all ..........

People vs Obama

http://youtu.be/jxtGz5gZaq
Time to fix media blackout on this case pass it along post it talk about it let them know who's in charge !!! I have a voice and I will damn well fucking use it !!

A bridge from the dark place to the meadow :D

Well here goes nothing since September 2010 I've been dealing with sooo much in my life downs and ups , vertical and horizontal . A few things I've learned first never trust a man who says he's ur best friend and would never turn his back on you he's lying. Never trust a person on twitter who won't give u a straight answer and is secretly gathering information to twist and use against you (music__girl) .


I can forgive the man to some degree but never the girl who lied to many people on twitter to get what she wanted (him) sadly thanks to my ex roommate for posing as other people (ruben langdon,and a psychic ) to destroy my friendships. Btw music__girl thanks to him I now have a photo of u in panties showing off ur crotch !!! Try getting a respectful modeling job after that stupid move so yeah , my ex friend wasn't the only piece of ass she was after ,from what I've heard she still gets around. However I don't see him getting acting or modeling jobs with what an ugly self absorbed person he has become what can I say u act like who ur with and boy do they act like each other . I bet he's lost a few close friends including the american girl he was in love with for the longest time (Ashley)

Yes I'm still bitter , yes I'm still pissed do I plan on revenge ? Not right now but I make no promises if I ever come across her in person that I won't do something totally stupid.
Now after all that crap I got engaged to a wonderful man ...... was happy worked very hard to save up move to England and start my life with him ... He however was not happy ..... So he wanted to "put things on hold till I get there" my thought if you can't be with me now why would you want me then ? ......... I went through a few different things jobs ,kids stuff , even came close to having another baby ... while on the side I was beginning to open up again about July 2012 jan of that year I met a friend online that reminded me of the friend I lost ...... Terrified at first I took things even slower ....... Sept he told me he loved me as a friend ...... By dec it grew to something much stronger ...... By jan 9th 2013 we were talking relationship
he keeps me sane makes me laugh makes me feel happy that I am who I am ..... Around thanksgiving of 2012 something incredible happened .........
The caged immortal became a published book . It's now on its way to the London book fair available on amazon.com . I feel so blessed to have come so far and I thank each and everyone of my friends who stuck by me and believed me and in me. Next book I publish I will thank you all and make sure your a part of it in ways you will only know ;) As for Doc .... II will see you this year ..... You may not receive Your package on v day but def. by your bday ! :) as for froggy your getting one also , boobs you too and twinkles u as well and u too tink !

today i learned to not give someone power to hurt me i have carried a lot of pain and hurt a long time since september. but now that its over i feel as if i do not forgive i can never move on . forgiving someone who feels they have done nothing wrng is hard and even harder when they leave ur life . wanna know the trick smile :)